Topaz Aurora

Things just like yesterday. I was still doing my studying. Feeling sick all the time. I was in this illness for about a month. Not really because the life was like that, pretty much I don’t want to face the fear.

I was in fearful for a long time, felt nervous and uncontrollable shaking. I am still in my life, I became mistrustful, my confidence was collapsing.

I faced a lot messes since I came here. I am not saying I can’t face the fear. I was deeply pulled down by my exam and maybe the weather. I doubted myself am I able? Am I capable? Am I doing the right thing?

Now everything is over for this round. This is only a small thing for some people, but for me, I feel something making me stronger inside out. No bodies life should be that messy, whatever I do I still need to carry on. 9 to 5 money earning, time will not be changed. A day is still 24 hours. What else I can do for myself if I don’t chose to fight the fear back.

I was down, upset, moody, grumpy and tearful; all these things were brought on by my exams and infection. So what else left for me?

I’d like to thank everyone, who cared for me. Helped me to face all the awful times. I had, and encouraged me when I didn’t feel brave. Now I have finished with the tough times. Thanks to all my mums and daddies, I know how much you love me. I want you to be proud of me, which you did before; and you will do in the future I promise. Thanks to all my friends, your care was the thing I truly felt when you tried very hard to be tough. I think you know who you are J.

I do apologise if I was moody, grumpy when you tried to comfort me. That definitely means I was messed up by my exam. Please forgive me.

Finally, I wish all of you A Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

I love you all.

CiCi